My Miss Universe Nepal 2025 journey: The journey of transformation

Advocate Saraswati Rai२ हप्ता अगाडि

Title :My Miss Universe Nepal 2025 journey: The journey of transformation  (From rejection to resilience  and from pain to power)

My Miss Universe Nepal 2025 Journey is so transformative where I turned every pain into gain , every tears into lessons and every challenge into new opportunity.

I have always believed in the power of dreams.Since childhood, I dreamed of participating in Miss Nepal and walking  confidently on the stage as a beauty queen. However, life took me down a different path ,filled with career commitments and a dedication to higher education and that dream remained just that a dream.

2025 had other plans for me.I filled out  the Miss universe Nepal 2025 application form  and  auditioned on  August 9, my audition was good I answered properly as on my basis  but got rejection and  inside my body and mind  running so much questions regarding this pageants .Why I am rejected ,is that pageant fair ...?  Fortunately, after some days the organizer commitee inviting me to take a part in MUN as a finalist and  I signed contract and  took participated there as wild card entry .

Trainning, grooming and first setbacks:

The trainning and grooming was started with first  powerful Mind Wellness Training by Mausham Shakya sir and after some days my first episode shoot was been done with Q & A round with  one of the   renowed Journelist guest  at that moment  , our episode was re shoot without guest again due to  organizer commitee said that some contestants didn't do their best at that time ,again  I questioning myself again , is that fair without  orginal guest  should did shoot again is right or wrong, fair or unfair ? Despite my doubts , all contestants co operated and re shot the episode.

An unexpected blow:

All the trainning and grooming session was going regularly , the day before grandmom episode shoot our 2nd episode and my 1st episode with one of the journalist guest sir was published but in that episode ,  I was shocked because in shooting  Sangita ma'am was not angry with me and hadn't  gotten up  and hadn't  said that it is like a school competition actually after my footage and  Prashant sir never told 'It felt like you were reciting from a textbook '. But in episode that footage has been added in my clip and it felt like the episode was manipulated to portray me as one of the weakest contestant. I got so many questions such as why organizer  want to present and prove you as a weakest contestant and why doing this with you and why are you in this pageant  from my family and relatives, also from abroad.That moment was so traumatised for me , I feel like helpless and questioning myself that is that platform really right place  for me and I share this incident with all contestants  and they also told me that talk with organizer because if the same incident happen with us again .

But I choose to keep silence because I didn't want to destroy the environment of grand mother and runway  challenge episode .unfortunationately , one day before the grandmother and  runway challenge episode ,my heel sandle is broken in Royal tulip hotel due to ignoring my inner feelings.

Runway challenge and  a breaking  point:

During the runway challenge episode shoot ,Dikpal  sir shouted at me loudly   and threatened to suspend me  from show.  I  broke down and cried at set . My make up artist gently wiped my tears with a cotton bud and reapplied my  make up and I completed both runway challenge and grand mom episode without mental clarity and any prepation.

After finished the shoot Dikpal sir said sorry to me and I came to my home. However my family, contestants and all the relatives told me to talk organizer for deleting the added clip from  Q & A round footage because this drama clip reducing my image and prestige too or do case against the organizer .

Quitting...... or not ?

Eventually, I decided to quit the MUN and I went to Royal tulip hotel with my sister to inform  the organizer of my decision but organizer convinced  me not to quit the MUN because I had already been featured in till 5th episode and it's really hard to us to give answer to Miss universe and other audiences and my sister also tell me that  to finish the MUN till grand finale and have fun and I also apologized  to  Dikpal sir for missunderstanding him because I realized  that being  a choreographer is not easy . If I were in his place , I might have shouted too.

After that everything goes on track , the organizer started to treat me kindly and I did my best in swimsuit preliminary round.

Challenge before the grand finale:

The day of grand finale, my blood pressure was also down due to fast the day before  grand finale and in grand finale day I was  dizzying ,feeling weakness , emotional and my mood was sweing  due to coming  period cycle so in finale rehasal ,I took Oral Rehydration Salts .

A dream realized:

Despite all the challenge ,betrayals ups, downs, tears, drama ,frienemies, emotional turmoil and breakdowns , I finally lived my childhood dream and walking on the stage as a beauty queen  and speaking my truth even without any background in the pageantry world.

I proudly share my life purpose of life :

I proudly share my life purpose of life to  advocate for  establish the rights to freedom of choice for women  and  to  establish the rights to live a privileged,protected childhood for children  . Dreams may be delayed, but they’re never denied if you believe in them enough.

Grattitude and reflection:

I extend my  immense gratitude to Miss Universe Nepal Global Glamour Venture for grant  this life changing experience  . Through this journey ,I learned so many valuable lessons and underwent powerful personal  growth and transformation .

A heartfelt thanks to :

I will be forever grateful with our coreographer Prashant Tamrakar sir Dikpal Karki sir for believing in me and gratitude to Mausham Shakya sir to lead a powerful Mind Wellness Training which helped me to complete this  journey with grace,resilience, peace and harmony .My family,well wishers and supporters thank you for all your unwavering support and unconditional love.

A call for fairness:

I firmly believe that inclusive,fair and affordable  beauty pageants are essential for empowering,grooming  and uplifting women. The goverment must play an active role by creating and implementing  strict policies that ensure  financial support, transparency and accountabilty  where need to  ensure participation opportunities even from economically disadvantaged communities and remote areas so after that from every  baconly the most deserving candidates  represent Nepal on international platforms .

To every dreamer out there :

Know this, your path may be filled with hurdles,pain and delays but if you believe in your dreams and yourself , you will always find your way to  accomplish and live your dream in reality.